There is a saying that God won't put on you more than you can handle....but what about the things we bring onto ourselves? I''m fairly certain that most of the troubles and difficulties I have are connected to self made bad decisions (mostly unintentional, but not all).
Now the last of my teenagers needs help and I just am lost. I am doing all the "Mama' things, calling all the resources....but SHE HATES ME FOR IT. AT THIS POINT THEY ALL HATE ME FOR CALLING ME ON THEIR "STUFF", BUT RESPOND BY CALLING ME ON MINE....sure i still have some! lots! I think they may come up with a new diagnostic code for me when i'm finished! Panic times 10, don't want to leave the house again, and more. There is so much going on I am not at the liberty to say out of respect for their privacy but nothing hurts more that seeing your children a mess when all they can do is blame it on you.
JESUS I LAY PROSTRATE ON THE FLOOR FOR THIS FAMILY- I CAN NOT BREAK FOR THEM OR FOR YOU.......
AND THE WEIRDEST THINGS HAVE BEEN HAPPENING...THE OTHER DAY THE FRAME ON MY BED BROKE SO ALL I COULD THINK OF WAS PROPPING IT UP ON END TABLES AND SUCH...VERY CROOKED FIRST NIGHT HAD TO ADD PHONE BOOKS. Well night before last, I dropped my eyeglasses and reached down to get them.... problem............ALL of me went to get them .....160 plus lbs on my neck cut my shoulder and face, almost broke my neck!
I'm so clumsily it's kinda cute.
So, I haven't written since then but need your prayers and as always mine are with you.
Sometime I find it insane that God loves us through it all.....
MAMA
